You are loved.
Infinitely. And not just by your father and I. You are loved because you come from Love…a Love so powerful it knows no bounds, nor any opposite. When you forget, put your hand on your heart and breathe. Close your eyes and breathe into that space. Know that the simple act of doing so can remind of you all you had forgotten. You are safe, secure and cared for. You are loved.
Sometimes I miss my old life. I was breathless, unaware and new. I was forever looking forward, hopeful. I believed in the power of romantic love…that two people can do anything if they commit to love one another forever.
I don’t live there anymore. But sometimes, I miss it.
My teens and twenties were filled up with fantasies that someone (my boyfriend) would complete me. He’d adore me, lavish me with gifts, we’d get married, have babies, I’d be thinner and life would be…Continue
Heaven knows I have done it. Since a young age I have used food as a weapon. I have hurt myself on purpose with it.
For years it was a matter of handling my feelings (mostly guilt) by eating and then purging. It was a behaviour I could throw myself into, get lost in and block out everything else. It was a kind of mania. I was most certainly insane. And I was violent, if only towards myself.
And then later came a very restrictive food plan. To a person with a healthy…Continue