i got sick of all these websites online that wanted women to comment about their hair or about celebrities like steven spielberg's wife or tom hank's wife.  i pushed my computer away and thought to myself how i felt my most comfortable when  i was around other people, listening to them talk, but doing stuff on my own.  i always tensed up around people, needed to perform, asked…

i spent the better part of the last three days facebooking stoneybrook and deciding where to meet outside the bromo seltzer tower. when I got there though the doors were closed and the fat guy that usually sat in the main lobby with the cane wasn’t there to listen to the shaft and to tell me to take the elevator .

then an old guy asked us if we wanted his tickets to the convention so we said “we’ll see about it.”

he (stoneybrook) looked at the tables…

if i could write a thanks note to my friend, Gallery Owner, here's what'd it'd say:

• thanks for finding that cheap $5 Chinese place for lunch. i can't believe my chicken came with so much fried rice

• thanks for letting me read out loud the excerpt from Megan Boyle's diary, "LIfe Without the Internet. I thought the part about how she'd probably weigh more and have finished…

Reason not to feel bad about hanging up on telemarketers:

-The Atlantic, January/February 2012

I played Tangerine over and over again with Gallery Owner after we left his gallery and the one across the street. I saw the woman who's daughter died from a shot used to treat that disease and I couldn't get her out of my head so I wrote her a letter.  I wrote out a check too for $20.00 and wrote her a long message.  Then I called Gallery Owner who didn't know my number and I asked him if he was going to the Green Turtle but he'd already left.  I walked into a rotating sushi bar thought…

-Read Backpacker magazine or Extreme Camper because that's pretty much what this whole book is about

-I liked the fact that no one really has a name. I always really wanted to make mine up anyway- I'll have that to look forward to

-Somehow the main character and his son don't make feeling aimless look so bad

-Apparently we will all contract tuberculosis on 12-13-12

-All my work for the Heffer Project will go to shame since McCarthy writes…

The last movie I saw:

-It’s the most domesticated role I’ve seen Jodie Foster in since Little Man Tate. And that’s when she was a single mom from a teenage pregnancy.  So I’m not sure that counts.

-Kate Winslett looked so comfortable throwing up over and over again that I wondered if she was actually bulimic in real life.

-Jodie Foster, a part-time bookseller/writer and a guy who sells dishes (John C. Reilly, her husband) could afford a penthouse…

1. I  drove through the Shopper’s parking lot like I was Heath Ledger trying to dodge the policeman on the bleachers in that movie.

That was back before he shaved his head, did drugs, and when he was in the movie “10 Things I Hate About You.”

2.   The first thing I read in Megan Boyle’s book was “I could never be a sports writer , unless my assignment was to write’ sports sports     sports sports sports sports sports’ for three pages.”

3.I am paying $50…

1. Feel like I might be pregnant cause I’m getting used to carrying heavy loads around. Everywhere I go I keep tripping over computer cords, Megan Boyle’s pamphlet book, and my purse.

I also spilled two tampons out of my purse. Perks were that it was stuffed with 2 letters of recommendation , Taylor of London lotion, & "The Road" (Cormac McCarthy)

2. Am glad that I have something close to lock jaw. When Dave asked me to do something intimate I really did…

Blog Directory

1. beantown ten

2.beyond reality zine

3.forbidden fiction (didn't know it was erotica)

4.Gold Wake Press

5.Goldfish Grimm's Spicy Fiction

6.Green Gecko Publishing

7. J. Taylor Publishing

These are the publishing companies that I submitted to one after the other when I couldn't go to sleep all night thinking of Top Crush…

Blog Directory

1. beantown ten

2.beyond reality zine

3.forbidden fiction (didn't know it was erotica)

4.Gold Wake Press

5.Goldfish Grimm's Spicy Fiction

6.Green Gecko Publishing

7. J. Taylor Publishing

These are the publishing companies that I submitted to one after the other when I couldn't go to sleep all night thinking of Top Crush…

Four reasons to prove why I like to get my hands dirty: Baltimore vs. D.C.

1.Baltimore=  In Baltimore the lightrail slows down through Howard St which is one of the worst streets in our city; I can see all the heroin junkies in slo-mo while we wait at red lights and 5 minutes for the homeless people to cross.

D.C.= In D.C. the people are dressed in too nice of trenchcoats and talking on bluetooths to ever make you feel like they'd throw you onto the tracks before the metro if…

Warmed my hand after I went running for 5m with Yair at Hopkins by picking up my hot pan because I thought I had a grip on the handle but now look at my hand... I touched the metal part instead:

Kept wincing at my temple which is called Har Sanai at 8' clock, later when we were saying the prayer for the candles "Baruch ah tah..."..at least I made it through without Cortizone because luckily I had my…

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<strong>IF I WERE A KID:</strong>



I'd tell Newt Gingrich that he talks/looks like the dad in "Contact"- David Morse



I'd say that with less hair he'd be a dead giveaway for…

went over to Lisa's house and watched her gay best-friend flirt with I-Know-It-All last night while I pretended to have fun eating sunchokes and playing a kids cards game with Lisa's boys.  I-Know-It-All said I acted crazy and confusing the other night when I walked away with some friends because she was acting full of herself again, but I said sorry anyway and planned to have a good time.  I ate enough homemade pizza then hid under an umbrella while I tried to hide from Book Seller who was…

What I Wanna Write:

Sylvia Plath, the Bell Jar- Writes off the top of her head too, opens up about stealing 1 sleeping pill a day from her mom’s stash till she gets 50, tries to commit suicide ASAP after that. Doesn’t hold back when she complains about motherhood, and about how her husband can fall asleep at night when she never can.

John Steinbeck, East…

From Goucher College's MFA in Creative Non-Fiction application:

BOOKS

"Please list a few of the most influential books you have read and briefly explain how they have influenced you."

Michael Ondaatje, Anil’s Ghost- He gave me examples of how you can make writing in present tense work, how you can pull off making female lead characters as strong as their male counterparts…

Tuesday

9 a.m: Top Crush and I still can't come to an agreement about Wayne Coyne being a good artist.  It's like bargaining with a Republican.  We kept giving each other articles back and forth from Pitchfork and Rolling Stone about Arcade Fire.  They , for right now, are what stand between us.

11:10 am: Can't get enough of Wayne Coyne so I watched the first 3/6 clips about their Soft Bulletin album on Pitchfork's music website

2:00 pm Realized there was a master's…

The Artist-

-who can’t not love a movie where the actors don’t talk?

-black and white films are great and even greater when you have modern cinematography to work with. 

-I hope B & W films are on the rise (cross my fingers).

-Argentinian lead actress was fun…