I think maybe the brightest point in my day was staring at the sun over the lake and seeing sunspots on the water where I was trying to make out which town was behind the trees in between the water inlets.  I yelled at my half-brother in the car today and called him a spoiled brat and I wanted to say more.  I spent two hours playing monopoly, beat my brother at it and he quit and I almost didn't say anything because I had to put the paper money back where I found it in the wooden drawer of…

Christmas was around the corner. I'd just finished hand-making the cut out sugar Christmas cookies with mom and now we were placing them onto a baking pan with tinfoil.  Last week we'd had grandparents over from both sides of the family for Thanksgiving and Kathy and I had to sleep on the floor of the living room in sleeping bags in front of the entertainment center.  Both nights it was hard to get to sleep since Grandpa Bower, on dad's side, liked to stay up until he fell asleep snoring to…

Segment 11: The Man in the Truck

I was ditching gym class again with Sheedy and we were outside under the bleachers sitting on the concrete and blowing our smoke towards the away team’s bleachers, by the round water tower.  “I have to go see my special educator during fifth period.”  I blew smoke out harder this time and drew spirals in the sand near my sneakers.  I let Sheedy have my cigarette and I turned to her to get a look of approval while I grabbed my down jacket from next to…

My mom is an honorary minister for our congretational church and every year I test out my singing skills with how I did the year before by pushing out my diaphragm and stomach when I sing so I can hear how I sound out the hymn as compared to the last service around this time.  This year I couldn’t sit still.  I kept thinking about the restaurant we were going to after, how I didn’t have much for lunch because I got to my uncle’s late and because I kept talking to my cousins since one of them…

Tested out Tom’s record player for 50 bucks with my hands in my jacket the whole time cause they didn’t have the heat on. then i looked into his eyes and saw that they really were blue, just like he said and just like ‘Too Busy’s’. Over the phone when I asked Tom if I could pay for the record player, the two amps, the speaker cords, the turntable all with a check he asked me what color eyes I  had and I said brown. he said that meant bad luck and that I couldn’t be trusted. I guess he…

Cell phone's been working overtime to listen to Christmas songs next to my bed till I fall asleep. I get tempted to use up my battery toIM 'Too Busy' like I've done every night since Tuesday. On Tuesday I came home to find my bedroom window cracked and I couldn't find my cat for two hours. I Waited up all night for the burglar, I put the dowel rod in sideways to see if he'd think that would make it easy to get in . then I stared at my Xmas lights until I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer…

Things I asked an eightball this week:

Will the person on the plane be middle sized? Enough to not take up my arm rest?

ANSWER: OUTLOOK GOOD

Will the class I don't want to take but have to , be filled up?

ANSWER: CAN'T PREDICT NOW

Will the guy I don't want to go on a date with to this party not try and kiss me when we…

Thought about how I accidentally probably left my mother's credit card information at the library while I was using it on the computer, in the middle of a conversation with Alex K. We walked in and found one of my blind dates from J Date talking with a blonde in a fur coat so I made us sit on the couch right near the two time J Date so I could keep an

Eye on their eye contact and see how well it was going. I Wore blue sparkle tights and red shoes so I could be my own Superman since the…

Drove up to York, Pennsylvania at 415 even though it was getting dark and I wouldn't be able to see any of Princess Street or the stream scenery in the light. And then I waited till I crossed over the Maryland- Pennsylvania line to call Katie and leave a message about how things were gonna be okay even though Xena the war princess her cat, had to be out down to sleep because of cancer that had gone on too long to treat. I called up the store next to Sugar the sex shop and left a message…

Cell phone's been working overtime to listen to Christmas songs next to my bed till I fall asleep so I don't get tempted to use up my battery up toIM 'Too Busy' at 11 o'clock like I've  done  every night since Tuesday when I came home to find my cracked window and my black cat that disappeared...waited up all night for the burglar, I put the dowel rod in sideways to see if he'd think that would make it easy to get in  but then I stared at my Xmas lights until I couldn't keep my eyes open any…

Segment 31: When a Third WorldCame West

We stood linking the ends of each others hands in front of Diane more because it was the thing to do than because we really wanted to do it because we both felt uncomfortable and kept shifting our weights as we stood.  There we were under the white bridal arch with wicker X’s that crossed and made room for the fake plastic ivy vines to wind through their spaces to create a border that was as contrived as Sam’s idea for going through with this…

Lately I've been paying for beers, going  to the toilet to pour them out, going back to my friends pretending that I drank my beer so fast back there that I'm really loaded, then calling up to my parents saying that I really am trying to save money. Felt guilty for eating a hamburger while watching a couple try fried worms in Namibia, Africa on House Hunters International while I wrote back to a date; "no. Don't charge anything for watching a friend’s cat for 3 weeks. Cats are great. You’re…

Hooked up with All-Over-the-Place even though I pretty much resigned myself from never talking to him again.  I was at the Club Charles, again, and this time I was sitting next to Frank who saw me singing along to Bruce Springstein's Christmas songs in my seat while I pretended to read the paper.  I was like "phew,...finally somebody I can talk to."  He had a green scarf wrapped around his little body and he seemed just as cold as I was...maybe that's how we started talking about…

Went to Leslie Lawson Look Alike’s Say What You’re Reading meeting at the storefront of her house while Stoneybrook grabbed two Flying Dogs for us so we could sit down on the red carpet and be wallflowers.  I was gonna have to think up another dare for him to do like going up and talking to one of the writer’s Leslie Lawson Look Alike brought in, after he chickened out from knocking on 1818 W Lafayette Street-out in the middle of nowhere.  We at least saw a pretty green concrete garage…

MAGIC EIGHT BALL:

http://www.indra.com/8ball/front.html

Will my Christmas presents come across looking a lot more expensive than the cheap amount I really paid for them...?

VERY DOUBTFUL...

Will the hot squash player at my gym finally hit the ball over by my bike so we can finally start up a conversation?

CONCENTRATE…

1. He coulda burned his tongue after making French press coffee, the kind he made when we woke up the next morning that actually was really HOT, and not been able to talk on the phone

2. Maybe he went back with his friends to the Korean BBQ place and dropped $400 like last time, except maybe THIS time he didn't have enough cash to cover it and so they took his phone as collateral (and maybe I'll get a phone call later from a bail bondsman asking for $$)

3. He…

Been avoiding the highway where that big rock sits cracking from the Chinese lady frowning at it when it doesn't look right.  I went down the hill to the gallery on the street and danced for like twenty songs to the beat of the guy in the black and white shirt's hot stare.  He was tall and I kept looking for him in the crowd, by the bathrooms below which the movie screen projected cartoons of sandwiches and icecream above a yellow cardboard looking wave.  I got a drink with Alex that I tried…

I kept calling him all day Thursday, especially in the morning I smoked three cigarettes before texting my mother about an email she sent to me saying I should feel okay about acting reserved and intimidating during work. And then after some texts she called up and I confronted her about it. I kept calling Damn-It but his phone was off and this got me stirred up even more each time I tried his cell.  I hugged my legs and watched the clock tick past ten and then I decided to get up, make my…

4 Reasons Why He Hasn't Called

 *had beefless spahgetti with too much mushrooms....

Monday:

I texted that I was going to sleep after I'd eaten strawberries and not apples (maybe he likes apples better)…