Check out this old blog post from January that I never published on apriloutloud.com. I was working a PT job that had me feeling like I was always running on empty. I'm no longer with the place, and reading this blog helped me actually feel good about that. It's short but funny!
I’m so exhausted. And overwhelmed, and yes stressed. Maybe I shouldn’t be but I am. I’ve been so exhausted from my regular job that I have no energy to write half the time and I’m eating Subway cookies like they are going out of style (I ate 3 today, 2 yesterday) to cope with the pressure. It’s bad enough that I gained all the weight I did from the holidays, now this. I didn’t plan for this. All the stress, the pressure, the not knowing how to do anything and having to be explained things multiple times. It’s been so long since I had a regular job I forgot how hard the first three months can be. And this is worse because I’m part time and have less time to do things. And I’m so stressed half the time I don’t know if I’m hungry or not, so I just eat so I get something in for the day. I need a massage, a husband, a hug. Any of those things will do. Something’s gotta give.
UPDATE: Life is way better now, but finding clients and paying the bills is harder. But I have faith that things will improve. I just keep the train of thought that the 80's band Timbuk 3 did: "My future's so bright, I gotta wear shades"