When I write I imagine my words reaching a thousand ears and a million hearts.
Friday I met a man name Brian. Never had any association in the physical realm, but Im almost sure we had met some other lifetime ago. As soon as we introduced ourselves buy name, he asked me " Who are You?" I responded with a monologue of " A love, a smile a shoulder to cry on, a writer, and artistic being." Then he asked " Well whose shoulder do you cry on?" ... It didn't only catch me off guard but my tongue ran away with me. Thankfully he got off my case and indulged another convo. Moments later he summons me to join him outside. He wanted to Tell me who I AM! Not on the surface but really behind the mask of me. I appreciate the type of energy i felt that night and everyday since that night, it has been confirmed that I've been playing a role and its time to take on the authentic face of Me. He confirmed my path of being everything/nothing other people have desensitized me to be. Knowing I have a gift that is so much greater than what they fear I could/should be. He went into depth much more than just that and touch the deepest part of me that had been sitting since birth. .. (Smiles) How could... who did he.... Stuck. and Motivated all in one.
So I started my journey of showing individuals how to love and treat me honestly. With no obstructions, just deep and real. Its like a puzzle, you cant make a piece fit, unless its in the right place, and if its not; either you have to wait till you need it and completely focus on the piece that is meant to be there. it wasn't even challenging. it was so natural to take on the task to gain my life back before it was to late. I always thought about the person I could be, never realizing that in doing so, i lost sight of the person I should be. Everything else came before me, everyone else's hurt came before mine. I was at a point where I felt completely lost, and had no one around to point me in the right direction to find my place back on earth. So at 25 I am living again. Everything I do is to validate and authentically confirm the Real inside Me. Its new and a bit intimidating but Im on a mission for me this time. So my life depends on it.