It is sometimes difficult for me to express my deepest feelings about God without sounding flippant and blasé. I often think back to a time before I started to question the meaning of my life, and remember my mother (a devout Christian) rattling off bible verses and Christian clichés to which my internal comment had been “oh lord, here we go again”. Well, I found myself doing the same as she, and the only way I found of circumventing those internal comments from others is in writing poetry, that speaks of God and who I have discovered Him to be, with a play on words that seek to question and intrigue each reader. I have been successful to this end in some of my poems, while others take on a romantic hue, and some are just downright silly with a wry twist to spirituality.
So here I am, just accepted as a member of SW, and the first comment I made is on the posting of Hollye Dexter, which carried in its content a significant subject to me; "Do we really believe and know that God exists in the world that we now live in?" Immediately, my poem below came to mind. It is one of those that will be featured in my book of poetry "Frisson of Spirit" which will appear on the market in the near future.
Thank you, Hollye, for giving me the spark on my first posting.
I’m Told What He Said
God has not told me to fix his world,
although the issues are of concern.
The directive to feed sheep gone astray,
does not require my judgment in any way.
He said to lead with his spirit that shines,
but none can be deemed a follower of mine.
He gave me insight into His wisdom,
so what I can do is point to His kingdom.
God never said that I had to be great,
but taught me patience to meekly wait.
There’ll be a cross, someday a crown,
not found in anything that I may own.
He fed me in spirit to write these words,
to wield them in battle just as a sword.
Then He provided a path of exposure,
for all to access His rest and composure.
He told me that I should abide in Him,
and in so doing my purpose took wings.
I set in words what spirit brings through
and gain the knowledge of God-given truth.
He told me to write of the agony and pain,
show the world how He works it for gain.
He wants me to tell you His way isn’t clear,
but He’ll be with you, so you needn’t fear.