[I just started blogging for the wonderful site/cause, I AM THAT GIRL. Below is an excerpt of my first blog post]
I had a revelation last night while I was in the bathroom (where, funnily enough, happens to be the room where I receive many of my spiritual “aha” moments). I was brushing my teeth while imagining Oprah was interviewing me on her Super Soul Sunday, as I often do. This time Oprah was asking me about love and how I knew it was time to let myself receive long-lasting love (apparently I was married to a really lovely partner in this daydream).
I wasn’t totally taken aback why she, or, let’s be honest, my subconscious, was asking me about the four-letter word. This summer my heart has suffered more disappointments than it has in years, and recently I’ve been asking myself, “why?” What came to mind (as I was still picturing myself talking to Oprah) surprised me. I found myself explaining to Oprah (and, really, myself) that I had never thought I was ready for a committed relationship because my life has been in flux for a long time. To make a long story short, I’ve lived in four different cities over the last five years and have held just as many odd jobs. Now, working as a freelance writer, I’m always waiting on the next job to come. Some weeks are busier than others, while some can be preeetty slooooow. I’m also pursing a screenwriting career, which is basically just asking for a life of uncertainty and checks lost in the mail.
It dawned on me that the uncertain feelings I have regarding my career played into how I view my worthiness of a committed, blissed out, awesome relationship. Bottom line: I didn’t think I deserved one.
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Also glad to hear I am not the only one who has these "interviews"! haha
Thank you Cate! Thanks for reading, and, yes T-dot! haha