From Fearful to Fearless
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Written by
Jenni Engledow
February 2011
Contributor
Written by
Jenni Engledow
February 2011

On my drive home from work today, I was thinking about the word fear. What am I most afraid of? Let's see....

 

The Big Kahunas

  • Loss of financial security
  • Failure (all kinds - parenting, relationships, work, etc.)
  • Stagnation
  • Not being relevant

 

The Minor Things:

  • Spiders
  • Snakes
  • Jiggly foods (pudding, jello, creme brulee, oatmeal, etc)
  • Driving in Ft. Myers, FL (see my Florida Dreaming post)
  • Pine nuts
  • Hidden dangers (they are lurking everywhere, but where?)
  • Dentists
  • Public Speaking
  • this list could go on all day!

 

Of the Big Kahunas listed above, the fear that is foremost on my mind these days is stagnation. Not Changing. Not Moving.

Why stagnation? It's taken a couple of days, but I finally came to the conclusion that the thought of waking up two (four, five, etc.) years from now doing the exact same routine that I'm doing now scares the shit out of me. Stagnation. It even sounds icky when you say it. That's the 'worry' that is consuming my brain. It was a relief to finally figure out the crux of my melancholy that I've been feeling. What am I going to do about it? I'm not getting any younger! To Read more click here.

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Comments
  • Jenni Engledow

    Wow, it's so true. I love that story!  Thank you.

  • Padmavani Karkera

    Hello Jenni

    I read somewhere many years ago and it has stayed with me...something to the effect that... stagnation doesn't mean lack of growth or progress; it means deterioration.

    The story I am about to share could answer your question about where to get the courage from :) The story goes like this-

    So this lady revealed to her friend she always wanted to be a lawyer, but then she had to quit her studies to work, so that, she could put her siblings through school, then it was marriage and a husband who wanted her at home, then it was children and so on... She fiddled with her tea cup and said "Oh I wish I could become a lawyer!".

    Her friend responds "So, whats stopping you?".

    The lady retorts back "Age, that's what! It is a three year course and I will be 60 when I finish!"

    Her friend bites back "Really? And how old will you be in three years, if you don't do the course?"

    Cheers

    Padmavani

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