I AM a Writer!

For only being 26 years old, I've experienced a lot of crap. Of course, crap is inevitable when you're highly sensitive and have frequent bouts of depression and anxiety. I won't go into it, but let's just say, for me only being 26 years old, I have a lot to write about. A LOT. And for quite some time I was aware of it, and thought "Damn, I could write a book." But I always thought "I'm not a writer now, I'll be a writer later, when I'm older, that's when I'll write my story." Boy, did that change!

Last year, in the fall, I went to a spiritual Expo and there was a woman there who was drawing auras (the energy field around our physical bodies). This incredibly intrigued me, so I signed up to have my aura drawn. She had this box of chalk, pastels and pencils crayons and had a blank sheet of white paper with the outline of a body on it. She picked up a piece of purple chalk and started to draw my aura around the outline of the body. As she drew, she intuitively delivered messages to me from my guides. One of the messages that came up was about my desire to write a book. She asked me if I write, which I did (a few journal entries here or there), but not very much.  She told me that I would be publishing books but it would happen a lot sooner than what I was planning. She told me that it would be important for me to keep notebooks that I could easily refer back to and that writing should be something I should be more focused on. This really inspired and excited me.

After this experience I did a little more writing (but not much), I would only write if I felt inspired or called to, and this didn't happen very much. And to be honest, I didn't really know where to start.

In April, things shifted for me. I began to pull out my notebook and write more frequently. I purchased a book to help me along (You've Got a Book in You: A Stress-Free Guide to Writing the Book of Your Dreams by Elizabeth Sims) with the writing process, and things went much more smoothly, but something was bugging me.  

On August 24, I had a realization that even though I was writing, I didn't feel like a "writer". 

I wrote: "I sometimes feel like I'm trying to be someone I'm not. Am I really a writer? Or am I just a poser?" 

I felt like I was a poser because I had never really written before and now I was writing a book. I was thinking, how can I write a book if I'm not a writer? And how can I just all of a sudden decide that I'm going to be a writer? 

And it hit me.

"Screw that. I can be anything and do anything I want to do. Why get caught up in the feeble crap? The more I write- The more of a writer I become! It's so true. I say 'Hell yes, I'm a writer!' So I'm writing! And the more I write the better I will be!" 

So, I kept writing, and writing and writing. I've started a blog since then and I've almost filled up another spiral notebook with stories and my thoughts and feelings. And now I'm realizing that the more I write, the better I am getting at it and the more I feel like a writer. I feel like making the statement that "I am a writer" completely affirmed that in me and it assisted me in stepping into the writer archetype. Since I have done so, I feel more motivated and inspired to write. All I had to do was step into my power and decide that I can be anything I want to be. And so can you! 

If you want to be a writer, write.

If you want to be a yoga master, do yoga.

If you want to be a dancer, dance.

If you want to be a pianist, play piano.

If you have that inner calling or desire to be something than GO FOR IT! I'm not saying you will necessarily be good at it when you first start. I know my writing isn't perfect, but I know it will get better and I will get better the more I do it. To be good at anything you need to practice, but you're never going to get good at it if you don't. 

I decided that I am a writer and you can decide who you want to be too. It is never too late for you to be a writer, a dancer, a yoga master, a mountain climber, etc. You can be anyone, and do anything you wish. All you have to do is make a choice to be it. And you will. :)

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