How do you protect yourself when writing about difficult times? How do you make sure you don’t relive painful experiences while writing them? How do you keep your heart open without getting sucked into negative energy or destructive old patterns? Which painful memories do you revisit, and to what extent? And how much should be included in your memoir? These questions came up for me recently while working on my memoir, The Raw Years: A Midlife Quest for Health & Happiness. Here are eight ways to make your way through painful memories while not losing yourself in the process:
How do you take care of yourself while writing painful memories? I’d love to hear your tricks of the trade, your secret coping mechanisms, or anything you’ve tried that’s worked for you.
I shared this on my FB page...I appreciate the validation to how difficult this type of writing can be...as of the present moment, it has me stopped dead in my tracks until the self care catches up. Thank you, this makes me feel less alone!
Loved your dream. I've dreamed of boa constrictors squeezing me before but they never turned into a beautiful queen! Great example of what Carl Jung meant when he said our dark side is full of gold. (Couldn't find the exact quote.)
I can't tell you how much I appreciated this. Every one of your ideas resonated, particularly the idea of shorter writing periods and attunement to physical comfort. Thank you.
Hi Bella,
I have a tricky situation and your advice was helpful. I am not writing memoir but even my fiction has nuances of my experience and personality. So if I have a character relapse into self destructive behavior, I live it and it frightens me. Because of this fear, I pull punches in the plot and the result is a sanitized, diluted, boring story. It is too careful and inauthentic. So the point on your list where I resonated was the eighth: Accept not knowing. I don't know how my story will turn out nor what will happen to the character if he relapses. If I can accept not knowing and push forward, I will find the answer. Thank you for your post.
Thanks, Cate. Feel free to steal away : - )
Jennifer and Cate, I mostly lurk-love the site-but had to comment. My heart goes out to both of you. Bella, I wish that I would have had that advice years ago. I lost both of my parents within 8 months of each other and they were both far too young.
Jennifer Pitt:
Whether or not you try my letter-writing idea, I suggest you set a timer for 15-20 minutes and write as fast as you can, without thinking, pouring out whatever wants to come through you. Start where you are. Write, "I've been staring at my computer screen, not knowing how to write because I don't know how to get through this." Then just keep writing. Until the timer goes off. It doesn't matter what you say. It doesn't have to be good. Just write. This will get you moving. Give yourself a lot of space. No expectations. The only thing you have to do is write without stopping for the allotted time. Quality, at this stage, doesn't matter. Just get words on paper. Keep tissues handy. Don't be afraid to let your emotions come up and out. Good luck.
Jennifer Pitt: I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. May I make a suggestion? Buy yourself a beautiful journal and use it to write letters to your son. It might be easier to write by hand in a lovely book you've purchased for this purpose than to sit at your computer and write, which might feel more like "work." You can take your journal outside, or anywhere that feels supportive and inspiring. The hand-heart connection that comes from writing by hand can be very powerful.
When my mom died in 2012, I wrote a journal of letters to her, and after I spent hours "talking" to her in this way, she began to "speak" to me through the writing. This was a surprise—and very comforting. I now feel like she's still with me, in a different, but tangible way. It also helped me grieve and get through to the other side of my sadness. Maybe it'll help you too!
Blessings of peace as you heal.
I needed to read this today. I have been attempting to write about the passing of my young son a few years ago, and I am going to use all of your tips to get through it. I have been sitting and staring at the screen, not knowing how to write because I don't know how to get through it. Thank you for this!