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Why is it that we seem to let our dreams and desires get pushed to the back burner? I remember being little and had a list a mile long of things I wanted to try, and be, and create. There wasn't ever a moment when I thought that I couldn't get them done because they were what my mind went to naturally; I had desire and fed it at any sign of hunger pangs.
I don't want to believe that growing up means that this spirit dies. So as much as I do want to pay my bills and get to work on time...I also want to make pies entirely out of whipped cream and throw them in someones face. And I really do want to get published, but I need to sit my ass down and write the story first. I need to make a mantra of all this when the boredom starts to creep in.
plenty of pies, and journal tries
Say it with me.
Sometimes I think its fear of failure--sometimes I think its fear of success. Other times I think its akin to the hero's journey and I'm simply at that step of denying my calling and soon a hooded wise one will step out from behind a mass of Jawas like Obiwan and set me straight. The odds are slim, but here's to dreaming! lol
Well, I don't put my writing on the back shelf since I chose to make being a full-time novelist my career. And yes, I have to struggle sometimes with not dropping everything for a kids tragic need to go to a movie with friends, get a new outfit for a dance, or even making dentist appointments after my work ends. But I am more happy than I have been and more prolific with my writing. I have nine novels in my writing queue and just finished my third novel.
I think it takes a concious choice to put yourself first, not a selfish thing either. And to make your dreams as important as anyone elses.
It's your turn now....that's what I think anyway!
Lorena