I don't like to admit that I'm afraid of what my autoimmune condition, igg4 related systemic disease, will do to me. But, the truth is I have often thought complications from it could cut my life short.  I usually bury the worry using my faith or denial. However, it took control off me in July 2014 and nearly ruined my dreams. 

Six months after finishing my memoir, Misdiagnosed: The Search for Dr. House, I was on my way to publication. I'd gotten a foreword from late comedian Bernie Mac's widow Rhonda McCullough. I had reviews from bestselling authors: Wes Moore, Richard Cohen and Marya Hornbacher. I had three magazine reviews: Publisher's Weekly, Kirkus Reviews and IndieReader. Then, I learned that I had to have a second stomach repair operation, a Nissen fundoplication redo.  The news rocked me to my core because I'd already endured a six lymphoma related surgical biopsies and numerous other procedures in a two year period. My body was tired and so was my soul. I feared I wouldn't survive.

I prayed about what to do with my book. I remember thinking that I should stay the course. But, I ignored my internal voice. I wrote to my agent and cancelled my contract, abandoned the foreword and decided to self-publish. 

My book got lost in the shuffle of the thousands of other self-published titles. The cover with a stock image didn't get it noticed.  And, I didn't have the money or energy to promote it. 

I'd rushed the book out because I was afraid that if I died no one would ever see it or be helped by my story. Yet, by not giving it the polish and publicity it deserved, I'd failed. 

I thought I had no choice but to live with my terrible decision to hurry Misdiagnosed: The Search for Dr. House to the marketplace. Then, I saw a Publisher's Weekly Booklife contest offering a free book cover redesign. I wondered, can I salvage my dream of being a successful writer or at least reaching more people with a new look? I decided to enter the contest.

I couldn't believe it but I was selected. My book cover was reimagined by a talented artist at Tugboat Design. It was completed the way it should have been from the beginning. I was inspired to reedit the pages to remove some explicit content that readers thought obscured the book's central point. And, I added the foreword back in. I also made sure buyers could get the book at stores, libraries and online in every form by setting it up on Amazon, Smashwords, and IngramSpark.

Now I have the memoir I wanted. On April 24, 2017 a new edition of Misdiagnosed: The Search for Dr. House is released. I vow that no matter what medical trials I face in the future, I will pursue all my dreams by relying on faith not fear; that way I won't have any regrets. P.S. Share this post with those who love a good book, are in need of inspiration, or need a good kick in the butt to stop making excuses and live. If you've already read it, please review it on amazon, pass your copy along.